Despair lolxx ( dnt know what to call this poem)

What will happen no one knows,
But still there is always hope,
Tired of trying want to give up,
On all our dreams for once and all,
It doesn't make sense but who does,
It is a cold world  where there isn't any love,
The one that is, ain't in our grasp,
Am tired of writing what i feel,
Because no one would care how it is .

none

Why cant i be what i want to be,
Why people push me around like a canopy,
What is wrong with being what you want to be,
Am sick of playing nice and caring,
Nobody cares what you do,
It is a cold world....

What is best.....

There comes  a day when you fall,
There comes a day when you rise,
Don't know which comes first,But they do come one day,
Trying to decide what fate has for me,
Nobody knows and will never know,
Until it is right in front of you,
I thought it would be easy,
To live the life i always wanted,
Now am bound to rethink,What is best for me????

What i think of love....

What love is to me no one knows,
It is like a desert with arose,
Sometimes it is there sometimes not,
It would have been more real if it was true,
Love is what you feel it inside,
When a mother holds her baby for the first time,
But what i call love is not that,
It is something that everybody has,
Without love life is hell and without life hell is hell....

I got in the car and told him to drive away
But when we saw you come up with all that furry
We waited to see what this night will come to be

You told him to get out of the car and close the door
I staid there listening to the two of you not knowing what to do
I heard yells, curses and name callings from you
I thought we were friends but this wasn't how I knew you

Why do you make this more complicated
Why did you make me chose between him and you
I know I care about you but the last thing I'll do
Is come back and deal with you

I would rather be with him, him that has always been there for me
I cherished our friendship and I thought it would always last
But look where we are all because of that night

A night where my respect for you totally vanished in the rain
A night where all I wanted to be was in his arms to soothe my pain
A friend lost in the midst of the rain a love found in the arms of my man

I was sitting all alone

Thinking about you that you are gone

I wanted to hold you tight all the time

But you wouldnt listen and it ended in a fight

Now i realize what we did

We didnt tell each other how we felt

That is how it ended

Now i know i shouldnt have let you go